This to shall pass

Not sure who really reads this blog and not really sure where to start...what a rough 2 weeks!!! I have been praying and praying for peace and understanding in my heart.
Long story short...had a miscarriage last Thursday. I had started spotting the week before (on March 5) and went in for blood work. Me levels came back with progesterone being low but my hcg level high. I went back on March 8 for more blood work and my progesterone and hcg levels had both went up but progesterone was still low so I started medication. Todd and I went on March 11 for an ultrasound and saw that there was no heart beat and the sac was almost gone as I had been spotting for days. I went out of town that day with mom and Aunt Nandy to get my mind of things and to celebrate Aunt Nandy's birthday. I had already been preparing myself for the miscarriage when I first found out my levels were low. But, I did get my hopes back up when I found out that had went up at the appt on the 8th. I could not help myself in question why but I found some peace in knowing that things just were not right for some reason.
Then...this week they realized my levels in my blood were still going up. My doctor called me Wednesday morning while I was at work and said I need to come in immediately. They did another ultrasound and I had very clearly had an ectopic pregnancy. Not sure if it was twins or if what I lost last week was just an extra embryo sac...there was no way to know for sure. So, I was told to be at the hospital the next morning for surgery. I had to have a D&C of my uterine tissue, they removed the pregnancy from the tube, and then removed almost all of my left fallopian tube. The tube was completely blocked and I was going to keep having these issues as long as we continue trying to have a baby. We knew I could not emotionally or physically go through this over and over. Many people have babies with just one tube but it has been emotional for me because it can make it more challenging. It has been an emotional roller coaster anyways because my levels are so high and my body still thinks I am a hormonal pregnant lady! I am extremely sore and have 3 incisions and then they went in "down there" (sorry of that is too much info) as well. My stomach looks horrible...swollen and bruised...and I am very tired.
Please pray for Todd and I. I do not want to form a hard heart with all of this or get into the mindset of things not being fair. God has a plan for us and I have to trust him fully. My aunt is here today and mom just left. I have had so many thoughtful phone calls, emails, cards, and even flowers! I am off work through the end of the month so I have some time to heal. It has been a rough 2 weeks but I am very thankful they realized things before my tube exploded. I know this to shall pass and we will be stronger because of it.

Random Thoughts

I have not posted in 2 weeks...where does the time go????
We have been working on the Toddco (my husband has a side business) tax preparation every night this week so that has occupied a good bit of time. I have found myself in the bed by 9 this week! I have been a bit "blah" lately and just really tired!
Last weekend, Todd and I were gone ALL day on Saturday...visiting with friends in Jasper, seeing our new niece Ellie, going to Mitchell and Mason's wrestling meet, and then meeting Todd's parents for dinner. We came on back Saturday night so we could make it to church on Sunday. I am still really liking Calvary Chapel and we are going to a luncheon in 3 weeks after the church service so we can learn more about the church and meet all the staff. The service on Sunday was about trials in our life and how we too often get down and out instead of turning the lemons into lemonade. I know I sometimes need to work on seeing the positive things in life instead of focusing on the negative.
I was so glad to make it to one of my nephew's wrestling meets this year. It is their first year of wrestling so there were only a few meets that they participated in. I hated seeing so many of the kids crying after they lost. It just reminded me how hard it can be to be a kid and how it hurts so bad to loose at something you really want to do well in.
Other news....I went to Publix and spent 42.11 and got 108.15 worth of groceries! I even bought organic milk and other organic produce which is typically much more expensive. I was pleased with that trip!
We do not have big plan this weekend and I am looking forward to just being at home and having good weather! It amazes me how sunny days can feed the soul!
Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!